I am 20 and tired.
Most days I go to work wishing to be fired.
I thought by now I'd have it all, thought life would be exciting, thought the world would be small.
But everyday I open my eyes to the clock
And wish I were someplace else.
I know about enjoying the now...
And I do. Really I do.
I know that I'm still young and need to stay in school and stay grounded an keep my jobs and not spend so much money and find a guy who wears suitesandput makeupon andiknowthis I knowthis but it can feel so wrong.
Can't help but think that now is the time for the appalacian trail
By the time I have the money I'll be too frail my zest may fail..
I want Hawaii while I've got this body
Not when I retire, not when the color has left my cheeks.
What if the Georgia peach doesn't taste as sweet after years of wanting air beneath my feet?
I want to start a revival so that I may be revived.
I wish not to be 20 and tired,
But 20 and alive.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
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It's so weird to see someone that gets it. You get it. I thought I was the only one who thought this way when I was your age. I would like to tell you that feelings like that fade with time...but I don't want to lie to you. ;p Just don't let your skin get so thick that you become callus to the world. Sorry I've been m.i.a. for a while...my comp crashed. Barely was able to afford another. Hope all is well. Keep writing.
ReplyDeleteIf you're tired it's because the world will weary anyone nowadays. But hopefully things will change for the better soon--for planet Earth, that is. In the meantime, be patient. Life can be good into your 30s, 40s and beyond. I'm 50 but I look 30. Don't go by society's standards. A New World is unfolding. Hike the Appalacian Trail if you like when your 20 or 40...eat healthy, excercise, keep doing the next right thing...follow your dream...more will be revealed...you've got a great adventure ahead of you, count your blessings. mbtt321@gmail.com
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